But there are some things that I am working on making time for, and I believe that this blog is one of them.
I sure didn't plan on neglecting it when it started! But, that is the thing with plans, they don't always work out the way that we expected them to!
This evening I was feeling a bit discouraged. There is something that God has put on my heart to do, to surrender something that I have been holding on to so tightly. You could go so far as to call it an idol in my life.
I felt myself begin to take the path of escape, running away from what I knew God wanted me to do. As I was still this evening I recognized what I was doing and knew that I needed to stop before things got out of hand.
Still I argued with God, the thing He is asking me to do is not easy.
It was denying my flesh, right in the place where it would hurt the most.
I could feel though, that something was missing from my life. Things have been going well, and I have made huge strides in the right direction these past couple of months, yet I felt like there was another step I needed to take. To go to the next level.
As I was thinking about all of this, I opened my bible and read these verses from 1 Peter 4:1-2...
Forasmuch then as Christ has suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind: for He that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin.
That he no longer should live in the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God.
It just hit me, God was saying that yes, denying myself may cause suffering... But that suffering will lead me to His will. And that is the thing I have been seeking these past couple of months.
Tonight I decided to finally surrender, that I might have a better ending.
Maybe there is something in your life that God has been calling you to do, but you have put it off because it is painful. Just keep in mind as I have tonight that God only asks us to do things that will bring blessing into our lives. Yes, maybe painful when you are walking through it, but joy waits for you on the other side.
